I left my childhood early to raise a child of my own
With doubts of anguish and brindled fear to build a happy home
My age had always been a curse with eyes of unyielding doubt
But no one was more scared than me while leading down this route
The sea was filled with sorrow & the ghosts that haunted my past
I watched as boats just sailed on by, with you hanging on my back
The route to peace was choppy as I swallowed the pain deep down
I held it all inside so long, worried you’d see my frown
I made it look so easy, never wanted you to fear
But mom was just an inch away from no longer being here
We made it to the shore in time for me to catch my wind
But the journey had defeated me, it led me deep in sin.
Here I thought the worst was done as we made it to the shore
Just to find it’s just begun and I’m bound for so much more
I’ve learned a lot along the way but in time I guess we’ll see
If the struggle I endured so long will bear my hearts defeat
I’m no longer who I was but Lord knows I’ve tried
To be a mom you can be proud of to see the benefit of my lies
I lied so I can save you, away from the hurt and pain
I’ve seen enough for both of us, it lingers everyday
I work my smile to the bone so you don’t see my tears
Yet those tears are taken for granted as you get older every year
The love I have for you is solid, its passion will never fade
A sun who provides endless light and a tree with endless shade
I know my mind starts wandering & I act out with rage
It’s only cuz my love is pure, this job I’ll never trade
So as we lay here stranded on this island of despair
Always know I’m here for you, any hurdle, everywhere.